26 June 2009

Today just cm bk from hospital...having surgery...very cool sia the operation rm gt abt 6 ppl including doctors n nurses... the doc must check my heartbeat first denn inject my hand...after tat she ask me to breathe in through a mask denn i willgo to sleep...so i dunnoe wat the doc is doin on my face... she say when i wake up i will feel like vomiting n headache...so i lying on the bed...dammn tired sia...n my head very pain...but nw okayx le...this is my first time so gt experience...wont 4get

luving

I shared my time wif my frenx in malaysia...i luv them so much... I hv taken this pic when i was very boring... the house tat is opposite is my neighbour...

Pics

My cousin...

lok lok...

today

Just come bk...sianz as 2mr nd go for surgery...cnt eat for 6 hrs b4 the surgery...hw? later suffered from starving...Just finish doin literature haven finish eng yet...but i think cn finish it tonite...5.30 am reach s'pore...so tired tat immediately after reaching hm i go nsleep already...dammn tired... today 12.10 p den wake up... I really dun wanna cm bk here... but i somehw miss here... the song i wnted to listen nw is 不会分离...

I dun wnt

I dun wnt ur promise...I dun wnt anything...I just wnt those memories wif u...Just this...I dun wnt u to say tat i just nd u...tats all...I wanna noe wat urs mind thinking abt...hw much u care? but u dun understand me...u realy dunnoe wat kind of girl i m...I just wnt u to rmb me, always...dun 4get me...bcos i wnt u to understand tat true love will nt die...it actually do exist...I dun realy believe but u make me understand...Maybe one day we will still think of each other...說你也一樣愛著我

The moment of silence

I was just listening to a new song called 沉默的瞬间. The moment of silence. Tat song represents my feeling for nw...my heart is high n low...quite nice...this song let me rmb some memories...so boring...goin malaysia soon...tat means i will nt blog for quite long...abt 2 wks...as well as busy...

Yesterday go BBQ n quite fun lah...I enjoy it very much.tnkx..N today just cm bk as go c doctor...The doctor say nd go SGH or the private clinic to operate...So 2mr go again to SGH to ask...But diificult as nw gt the virus H1N1 so cnt enter so 2mr go ask again...If nt nd go private clinic...Very troublesome sia...but no choice lah... 2day also nth to do except 4 hmwk...

Dun understand

Wanna get rid of u in my life but i could nt bcos u r quite important to me...U r somehow related to me...there is connections between me n u...but it is friendship...The feeling was pain, realy painful to me...N i think it is the same to u...Maybe u cnt understand but u will understand in one day...I believe so...miracles do happen in realities...But without you my life will feel broken...I dunnoe wat this means n i hope i will nt get it so i wont be so confuse n pain...In my mind, there's sth but i dunnoe wat is it...feel lyke crying tonight...Bcos of u my life is somehow mess up n i dunnoe wat i wnt...Dun wnt all this to continue...Pls...Anyway, I'm so sry...

The story...

I was reading this storybk...This story was abt a girl who had a bad childhood n she always get bully by her neighbours...But her parents did nt care abt her...her father was a bully nobody dares to get close wif him bcos of his attitude n personality...her mother was a kind-hearted lady n she always get beaten up by her husband...her mother passed away in an accident n this accident make her life change...her father make her to be a beggar n always abuse her...This girl named Jane...She is a helpful girl n always help the elderly when they nd help...Jane had to follow wat her father wnt her to do n she think her life was meaningless n once wnted to kill herself...but a lady rescue her n convince her nt to do tat...The lady was once a girl lyke Jane...The lady name was Aunt Grace...She tel Jane her past n tel her to believe in herself...She also teach her different things n tel wat life is...
So Jane did nt give up n she became more determined n brave...She work as a gardener in Aunt Grace garden...Her father soon was killed by the bullies...eventhough Jane's father was a bad person, Jane still feel sad abt this...Jane thinks tat her father will always be her father nothin will change...So Jane follow Aunt Grace in her rest of her life...She learn alot of life's reasons n explanation...After reading this storybk, i m touched by this...I luv this storybk very much...

Nothin to post abt...Y this year June holiday so boring...Time passed so slow...there is alot of hmwk too do until very tired...Next monday i cn meet my parents le...yeah, so long nv see them liao...They just cm bk from China wif my cousins...hoping to receive some gifts from them...my feeling was quite bad hope tat i wont cry anymore...N next wk i m goin malaysia le...looking forward...I so long nv go bk le miss them so much...Luv malaysia...

Miss u...

Oh i post again...2day i post abt 4 already...bcos i very boring...Suddenly feel eager to meet my 6D gals...I luv them n miss them so muchy...I realy miss them...i hv lost contact wif some of them... yesterday chat wif PQ n find out tat i was quite bad bcos i m the quite some who disappear n nv contact wif them...next tuesday they hv bbq at east coast but i could nt go bcos i was busy on tat day...haiz...so unlucky de buti hope they cn understand too...i realy miss them... especially PQ, eunice, wenying, Jasmine n they all...so long nv meet them le, wonder hw r they...
all of them go bnss except 4 some... quite sad...but i hope they cn lead a happie life at bnss... miss them n i hope i will meet up wif them soon...gdbies...I luvv 6D...

My cute cousin...

This is my cute cousin...He is 5 years old this year...He is very cute when he talk cantonese... He will kiss u too... When he talk chinese actually quite accurate already bcos at Ipoh,malaysia they always speak cantonese... I miss him so much...Luv u...

3 June 2009

Photos hv just uploaded...

The canteen is lyke the food court in the shopping mall...

NIce...

3 June 2009

Wednesday just go to the payar lebar methodist girl's school(sec)...The school is super big n quite beautiful too...siew eng, amirah,me n other choir members go there 4 watching a performance show...it is the arts festival...oh yah, the band n the dance members also join us...the concert is quite nice n the place is very big n there is also air-conditional...So i nv sweat at all...schools tat hv won the gold wif honours n gold award 4 the syf in the east was performing 4 us...at the beginning i was curious at all this...it was said tat the concert is to let us experience n noe hw this schools cn get gold wif honours or gold award...but some of it is realy boring makes me wnt to fall asleep...i think the best one is the dance performance by tanjong katong girl's school... very nice...tats y they can acheive gold wif honours...the anglican high school choir was also nt bad...they get gold wif honours too... after watching this concert , i was damn tired n reach hm abt 7pm plus...but a great day too...

changez...

Just chat wif ameila n find out tat Susanna change alot...She becomes more cheerful n open-minded as well as positive...She is no longer tat girl tat i noe...she use to hate huiqing but nw she is gd frenz wif her...I dun get it.. Is it bcos of me? I hope nt...last time, she use to bottled up her feelings n she dislyke ppl who r copycat...nw she is frenz wif Grace, the copycat...I dun understand, is she avoiding?...she change her feelings towards him...
I just realize...it is bcos she finally get it...she understand tat fate could nt change...I m glad tat but she did nt 4gave me... i m so sry...regret fills up my heart...I wish she cn be a better person n lead a happie life in her school...there's nth i cn do...just keep a place 4 her in my heart...she is a great frenx...miss her so much...

Yesterday

Yesterday was super bad...bcos i cry...cry until my eyes extremely red...I was using laptop when i suddenly cry...tears roll down... my heart very pain...I could nt control tat feeling...I hate myself...i dun noe wat i realy wnt n i i dun wnt all this to continue... as i believe more ppl will get hurt...i m verri confuse my mind keep thinking...do hmwk also cnt concentrate...I cn mw understand wat is the true pain...being a human is difficult...